Starting up again..

In the last year my heart has been sad, weary and frustrated from its lonely state. Its been hard to compose my thoughts into words. A part of me also hasn’t felt safe enough to share any of it.

After almost a year of not posting on this blog, I look back on its title, why I created it and how things have come to pass. Before coming to college I decided to start up a new blog where I would connect to everyone at home. I knew it would be a series of “Hellos” and “Goodbyes” – hello goodbye hello goodbye.  I didn’t think I would come to reflect on the meaning of home and friendship as much as I have. In naming this blog, I predicted the transient nature of my relationships here and back in Singapore.

Friendships, relationships, community, trust and love take time to build but I didn’t anticipate how long they would take nor the loneliness I would experience in the meantime. While I appreciate the friends, opportunities and support I’ve received here, my heart has not felt as vulnerable, alone, unstable and hurt as it has been. There’s really nothing like home.

There’s nothing like the laughter and understanding of dear old friends, even if it is over the computer speakers and screens. Despite how I’ve been feeling, all it takes is a good friend to remind you that someone is there for you and cares for you.

Hi Jules

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